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Addiction Break-Up Ritual

This is the last casino I stepped into, where my last bet was placed.   I took a few seconds to take this picture as I passed by it for the last time.  I don’t know why.  Looking at the picture causes me great pain.  It reminds me of my defects and demons.  Right away, […]

For those who follow my page

Hi guys. Earlier, I was brainstorming my next post.  It was a very very rough draft…mostly notes that I jotted down.  It was accidentally posted by my 1 1/2 year old who decided to slap his little finger on my phone screen.  My lil’ rascal has good aim and got it right on the publish […]

Sorry to say…

I went back. It’s been months since I’ve written in this blog.  When I started it, I was focused, and motivated.  I was taking the bull by the horns, and everything was going to be OK.  I was so sure of it, nothing could stop me. Then life happened …travel, holiday breaks, a death in […]

Aaaaaaaahhhhhh!

… it is NOT easy starting a blog when you are IT tech illiterate and you have a 2 yr old and 9 month old running, crawling, and climbing around and cutting off your idea flow. Well, not so much ideas, but more the crossing t’s and dotting I’s. -akward sentences -image searching -attrbutions -why wont […]

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30 Days Sober – Gambling Free

I want to take the time to document today, September 10th 2016, as my 30-day mark in my recovery process.  It has been 30 full day since I last gambled.  Read more about my last time.  I still haven’t fully come out to my husband and family about my gambling problem. Sure they know I […]

Addiction Recovery LIVE

 Note to reader:  “As an addict, I have two choices: stay buried and lost in the pain, guilt, and regret of addiction or fight to dig myself out of (however difficult it may be) the mess I created and start my healing process.  I choose to fight… and now is the time to take action. […]

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Day 1 of Recovery – Oh how I wish I could turn back time…

I have everything I’ve ever wanted.  A gentle kind soul for a husband and two beautiful children.  My little ones are both under 3 years old.  I want to cry just thinking about them and how much I’ve hurt them.  I should be happy and content.  I should be laying in bed sleeping peacefully at 3:00AM […]